I have felt that my life is at stand still, the phases are not changing.
After having finished college 2 years and 4 months have passed by, many of my friends joined for post graduation, some of them are working, many are married, having one or 2 kids and yet studying or working, so much is happening in their lives.
The bus had dropped all of us at a point, others moved on, either took a car, a train, a ship, or even walked away and I am standing still where the bus had left me, not able to move in any direction. I have cried, i have envied but not anymore. Now its just that the question comes up, what is god planning for me.
I had done my schooling in Dubai and after college, I have again moved to Dubai, which is why I have not been studying or working, due to the rules here and God hasn’t planned a child for me yet and added to all these he(God) called my mother back to him making me feel even more lonely and helpless
I don’t want to cry anymore, I want to face this life boldly, I know there are people suffering so much, and in their eyes my wailing will be a lot insignificant. But to me, my problems have volume, yet I am trying to outlive them.
My mother always said, for those who don’t have anyone, God will be there for them and am trying to believe her…